Moore

:(

I’m gonna write this down here cuz I don’t really know what else to do about it. Yesterday I dated a wonderful (or so it seems) guy. Like, everything I want in a guy. And I think it all went alright. But now I’m leaving for Canada and he’s on his way to France and I’m not seeing him in like six months (the least). And idk, I really liked him and can’t really get him out of my mind right now. Ugh. I’M LEAVING FOR A SEMESTER ABROAD, I can’t afford to like someone. I kind of regret dating him because of the way I’m feeling right now (I always like guys at the wrong time) but it was all in the “you’ll regret the things you didn’t do more than the ones you did” kind of spirit, and I’m also glad we dated and idk. It’s all kind of confusing and I’m tired of this feeling. Guess I just needed to get it out.

Hollaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

So anyway, I’m never on tumblr anymore and whenever I remember about my “blog” (or whatever this is) I’m like “oh maaaaan” and I come in here and go through a couple pages on my dashboard and read my latest posts and laugh about how my life has managed to remain basically the same, so I decided I was gonna post something TONIIITEEEEE. not. but yeah, hi. 

Uh, I’m not sure what I should talk about. I guess I initially created this account because I wanted to kinda keep some memories safe (and to reblog stupid shit. and because hey, it was THE thing back in like 2009), so I’ll just rant a little about my recent adventures. 

In case you were wondering, (whoa, a lot of you are still following me. idk if that’s because none of you log into this thing anymore or because you just never unfollow but whatever) no, my life hasn’t all of a sudden become more interesting. I’ve been struggling with a few issues lately, but nothing too serious. I’m still studying International Relations (haha, remember how I dropped out on day 1? There should be a post about that here somewhere), and I still don’t find it especially amusing. It’s okay, though. I go to class mainly for the lolz (is that still a thing people say on the Internet?). I’ve made pretty great friends so it’s not like school is too much of a problem. The workload’s crazy, though, but I still manage. 

Still no boyfriend; still gay as… a gay. I keep falling for straight guys. Someone recently (not recently, really. like 4, 5 months ago) pointed out that maybe I keep doing that as some sort of weird self-defense mechanism in which I fall for people I can’t “have” because I’m scared to fall for someone I can. I don’t wanna give it too much thought, but maybe this guy’s not so far off. I’ve had pretty terrible issues with rejection; I guess I’m not ready to face it again. Anyway, I still like cute guys and I still lust after posh idiots. Sometimes I’ll like gay guys but they pretty much never like me back (I assume, because I usually don’t do anything about it). I do want to get a boyfriend sometime soon, idk. Guess we’ll see. Btw, I’ve yet to get my hands on a straight guy.

I may be going to Canada next semester as an exchange student. I have a list of things I wanna get done before that, though. (Future self: If you’re reading this and those things have not been taken care of yet, please punch yourself in the face). I don’t have any longer-term plans. I still don’t know what I’ll do with my life once college is over. I guess planning is not my thing, but things have a way of working themselves out in the end. 

I’m working as a research assistant right now. It’s a little boring, but nice. I make a relatively decent amount of money (I mean, the things I’m asked to do are not really thaaat sophisticated), plus my boss is dishearteningly attractive. I miss half of his instructions because he’s just so cute. Agh, whatever.

So yeah, THAT’s what’s up. Holla back bitchesssssssssssssssssss (not) (or do, I miss reading replies).

Long time no see, tumblr! :D

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it’s been ages since i last posted something on here :(